Something New

[oxbastetxo]

All right, I'm doing this. Vance thinks it would be a good idea if I start keeping a journal of my thoughts and feelings, if for nothing else for Jalan to understand more about his Mother and where she had come from. I really don't want Jalan to know where his mother has come from. I don't want to think about that life any more. I'm not that person any more. Darkfire died in that arena of Karella's on Tatooine. Mika Steele-Lell is someone completely different.

I am a Mother.

I never thought that would be a word ever used to describe me, but it is. Jalan is the sweetest, most precious being in the galaxy. He's so tiny and so perfect. He has Darien's eyes and if we're lucky, his disposition and not mine. The family seems pleased that I'm finally awake and that Jalan is with us now. Even Keri has seemed to take a liking to him, light as he is in the Force.

This is all very overwhelming. I...feel so much right now I'm not making much sense of it all. Darien has been wonderful. He is my rock. I know I couldn't have gotten through any of this without him. I fell apart on him our first morning back in our room as a family. We're a family now. Our own little family. I still am having trouble wrapping my mind around that concept.

I must end this, my little Jedi is waking up and wants to be fed and cuddled a little while.

--Mika